.While Reading This It Will Bring You Happiness And Heart Break. It’s My Life, My Fuck Ups. Well I Should Probably Start Off On Where I Was Born. July 11^th In Satin Maria, Portugal. I Was Suppose To Be Named Gilbreta After My Dad But My Parents Decide To Name Me Cristina. Everyone Else From Where I Was Born Was Name Maria Very Happy I Wasn’t. I Lived There For About A Couple Years. Then I Moved To Canada. Not Such A Good Idea. When We First Got To Canada We Had A Hard Time Finding A Place To Stay. But Lucky Us We Had Family Here. Soon After We Got Our Own Place To Stay. Considering Cambridge Is Mini Portugal. My Mom Still Was Having A Very Hard Time Finding A Job. So She Went On Welfare And Went To School To Learn English. My Dad Finely Found A Hangout, Because Of The People He Worked With Video Hut. Everyday After Work He’d Be There. So I Always Knew Where To Find Him. My Dad Always Came Home Drunk. Fights Between My Mom And Dad Very Night. Soon After My Mom Knew She Couldn’t Depend On My Dad. And Went Job Hunting,. Soon After She Found a Job. Well My Dad Made Good Money But All Of His Money Went To His Beer And His Hoes. My Dad Cheated On My Mom A Lot. I Remember Him Telling The Girls My Mom Was His Sister And I Was His Niece. I Just Called Him Daddy Cause I Had No Dad. My Mom Didn’t Know How To Speak English Yet. So He Took It To His Advantage. My Mom Barely Had Any Money To Support Me And Her. But She Tried Her Hardest At Her Job. But Also Her Boss Took Advantage Of Her Cause She Knew No English. She Worked There For About 3 Months And She Cut Two Of Her Fingers Off. Then She Got Money From The Government And Welfare. Sill My Dads Acting The Same No Change. Still At His Best Hangout Video Hut. God I Hate That Place. I Soon Later Started School. Now My Dad Stopped Bring The Hoes Home But Still Drunk Like A Bird. But The Fighting Just Went On. My Dad Found New Friends. Stop Drinking For About One Year. Thinking Things Would Get Better But Got Worse. My Mom Started To Have An Affair With This Guy. Which Was One Of His Friends. My Dad Knew So He Went To His Old Ways To Deal With The Pain. One Night I’ll Never Forget. Dad Comes Home Drunk. And The Spice Girls Just Came Out And I Wanted To Be Just Like Them I Loved Their Shoes So Me And My Mom Went To Walt-Mart To Buy A Pair Of High-Heels. But That Same Night My Dad Came Home Drunk They Fought And My Mom Was So Mad She Grabbed The Shoes She Just Bought Me And Smashed It Over My Dads Head. From There On My Mom Slept On The Couch And Dad In The Bed. My Mom Kept Having The Affair. My Mom Soon After Left My Dad And Moved In Wit The Guy. Since My Dad Loved My Mom So Much And She Broke His Heart He Started To Do Drugs. Slowly Started To Deal Them. Every Weekend I Would Go See My Dad. Scared Shitless Something Would Happen To Me. Then About A Year Later. Living With My Mom And My Step-dad Coming Home From School. My Mom Sits Me On The Couch. And Tells Me That I Won’t Be Seeing My Dad For A Very Long Time. He Ran Away Because Of The Cops Found Out He’s Dealing And He Had A Court Hearing On That Friday And That He Would Be Sent To Jail For 25 Year Because Of The Dealing And Some Other Stuff That She Didn’t Tell Me Then After Severing His Time He Would Be Sent Back To Portugal .I Cried So Much That Night. That Weekend We Cleaned Out His Apartment. Cops Everywhere Asking Questions.

Then About A Year Later We Moved Into A House My Dream Come True Always Wanted To Live In A House. I Just Cause All My Other Friends Lived In One And I Just Guess I Felt Different. Everything Just Seemed Prefect The Way I wanted It To Go. My Dreams We're Coming True. My Mom And My Step-dad. I Went To A New School. But Slowly Got Involed With The Wrong People Like My Dad. Not So Good. Started Doing Drugs, Parties Every Weekend. Seeking Out. For My 14th Birthday I Ran Away From Home. Cause My Step-dad The Jerk. Tryed Raping Me. Told My Mom Didnt Believe Me So The Whore Took His Side And Beat The Living Shit Out Of Me. Called The Cops On My Mom. My Bestfriend Die A Couple Months befor That. All I Needed He Was Part Of Me We Went Throught Everything. We Both Had Fucked Up Lives. His More Then Mine. I Loved Him With All My Heart.Gerorge. Had This Boyfriend Just Thought He Was The Greatest Thing In The World. Even Though The First Week We're Going Out He Called Me Leftovers. I Don't Know Why I Didn't Dump Him Right There. But He Got Better Or So I Thought. Cause He Was There For Me Through Everything. So I Lost My Virginty To Him Big Mistake. After That I Found Out He Was Cheating On Me. I Told Him Off. And Then I Thought I Was Pregnent With His Kid So I Told Him. He Told Me To Go Fuck Some Other Guy And Blame It On Him. Then There Was This Guy John Made Me Feel So Good About Myself. Cause I Just Felt Like Shit. Even Though He Was The Biggest Pimp In Fucking Cambridge But I Fell For It. I Got Used. Wasn't The Best Feeling. There Was This Guy Named Kris I Liked Him For About Three Years. Hmm I Wonder If I Tryed To Be With Him Harder before All Of This Shit Happen. Would Of I Gotten Hurt Some Other Way. Hmm Guess I'll Never Know. Me And Him Got Into A Fight. A Stupid One. But Hey Thats All I Needed. Then Three Months Later We Made Up. We Met Up And That Same Night We Had Sex.Now Was That A Smart Thing To Do. The Next Day Some Guy I Dated Showed Up Matt. I Hated Kris Called I Could Only WOnder Was Going Through His Head. Then Matt Left I Called Kris Right Away And Explain Hoping He'd Frogive. Four Days Later He Asks Me Out. So Happy. A 3 Year Dream Came True. Now We're Together. My Dream. Everything Was Great At First. But One Thing He Jealous. ANd He Can Slowly Lose That. I Got Pregnant With His Baby About 3 Months After We Were Dating. But He Stayed With Me. Unlike My X. Thats Good That He Stayed. But We Didn't Get To Keep It. I Had A Misscarged And All. Its Been Six Years And Styll Haven't Seen My Dad. My Mom Styll Brain Washed By That Jack-ass Supposely My Step-dad. That I'll Kill Some Day. Thats My Lyfe So Far Wonder How Much More It Will Fuck Up.